We are gonna complete three full years of no travel back to our country of birth, India. Usually in the past, I used to get to go every two years because of my job, but now there are no said professional ties to pull me back anymore.
This time its with a state of mind with loads of this feeling of loss and sadness that is slightly laced with some excitement that I am getting prepared for the long travel.
Travel back to India is always a hassle for us. The prepping of it definitely is stressful with, have we forgotten this, are we prepped for that, and is that safe for the kids and so on. Above all this, there is the stress of having to shop for many.
This time its different from all the other times in many ways for me. What with the loss of a dear parent and many other changes that have ensued. This time we are also at least trying to cover most everyone in our shopping list, but then like we eventually always have to admit, its just not possible to be prepared to satisfy everyone, which we know is an Utopian idea any way to begin with.
You have this dream to be able to bring a smile to every one's face, everyone that matters in your life back home, but its definitely not a practical idea with just one salary, I sorely have to admit . Even with two earning members I hear the groan and the moarn around us, whenever anyone travels back home, so its not a surprise we are in that particular embarrassing situation like others .
I am prepared to face all the insinuations and the murmurs of familiar relatives and friends trying to get a poke at us about us being returnees from the developed world and having nothing to give all and sundry. But thats the way of the world and yet I am not totally impervious to all those criticisms. It does have the ability to hurt us sometimes, evoking a momentous wish in those fleeting moments, to be a multi-milloinaire, and thereby satisy everyones desire for some goodies. But maybe being one of those rare species might generate unwanted feelings of selfishness and more greediness in me and total disregard for sensibilities and sensitivities, which I definitely do not savor.
I just wanna be the person I am, with my limited powers, an ordinary life with my dear family and dear friends and maybe a small job . I believe thats all I need in life to make me happy and make others happy and be satisfied and give satisfaction to all around me.
Then again, its all about being able to be satisfied with what you have or more to the point, you do not have I guess. As long as you are aware of this, your limitation that is, and realize that you cannot overreach to satisfy everyone that matters to you, probably you should be alright in the long run.
This time its with a state of mind with loads of this feeling of loss and sadness that is slightly laced with some excitement that I am getting prepared for the long travel.
Travel back to India is always a hassle for us. The prepping of it definitely is stressful with, have we forgotten this, are we prepped for that, and is that safe for the kids and so on. Above all this, there is the stress of having to shop for many.
This time its different from all the other times in many ways for me. What with the loss of a dear parent and many other changes that have ensued. This time we are also at least trying to cover most everyone in our shopping list, but then like we eventually always have to admit, its just not possible to be prepared to satisfy everyone, which we know is an Utopian idea any way to begin with.
You have this dream to be able to bring a smile to every one's face, everyone that matters in your life back home, but its definitely not a practical idea with just one salary, I sorely have to admit . Even with two earning members I hear the groan and the moarn around us, whenever anyone travels back home, so its not a surprise we are in that particular embarrassing situation like others .
I am prepared to face all the insinuations and the murmurs of familiar relatives and friends trying to get a poke at us about us being returnees from the developed world and having nothing to give all and sundry. But thats the way of the world and yet I am not totally impervious to all those criticisms. It does have the ability to hurt us sometimes, evoking a momentous wish in those fleeting moments, to be a multi-milloinaire, and thereby satisy everyones desire for some goodies. But maybe being one of those rare species might generate unwanted feelings of selfishness and more greediness in me and total disregard for sensibilities and sensitivities, which I definitely do not savor.
I just wanna be the person I am, with my limited powers, an ordinary life with my dear family and dear friends and maybe a small job . I believe thats all I need in life to make me happy and make others happy and be satisfied and give satisfaction to all around me.
Then again, its all about being able to be satisfied with what you have or more to the point, you do not have I guess. As long as you are aware of this, your limitation that is, and realize that you cannot overreach to satisfy everyone that matters to you, probably you should be alright in the long run.
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