I had kept away from my field for some time and had tried to change my profession by learning something new, but eventually, I find myself end up in the same field I have many years of experience in. So, maybe I should stick with my original field of work -maybe that is a sign- my not being able to shift fields with some good training even.
Now that I am certified and prepped, I thought my new job should easily fall on my lap. Sadly, it is turned out to be quite the opposite.
I have been job hunting now for several months and am fast losing hope of landing any as the Fall season is almost upon us. Might have to be satisfied with months of substituting again. Not that I mind, only, I would rather prefer something a bit more stable both job-wise and compensation-wise.
Have rediscovered I love my field of work after all and am itching to get that first chance again. Which by the way is not easy. Like someone recently said , it's not enough one has all the qualifications and experiences required, it's more important to 'know' the right people in the right positions in order to be placed.
And so, my days of job-hunting looks to me like an outstretched, never-ending path and I do not relish it or care for it in any way. In short, I am totally tired of all the pleasantries and smiles and meaningless praises which bring no results. The harshest thing to take is that all these letters of regrets that I receive each day are carving away at my confidence day by day and I totally dislike whats going on with me.
In spite of my utter distaste for the experience, I still continue applying and putting myself forward for interviews and job fairs. I need to get that first break again, its become very important this first elusive job after my long break, whichever comes first, because I can feel myself sinking bit by bit into this quagmire of frustration, helplessness and this total and absolute feeling of loss and helplessness- which is like just waiting to engulf me.
And so, I continue with my daily routine of sending applications and attending interviews...so that I may survive,just live, day to day to day to day..have to keep going right?
Now that I am certified and prepped, I thought my new job should easily fall on my lap. Sadly, it is turned out to be quite the opposite.
Have rediscovered I love my field of work after all and am itching to get that first chance again. Which by the way is not easy. Like someone recently said , it's not enough one has all the qualifications and experiences required, it's more important to 'know' the right people in the right positions in order to be placed.
And so, my days of job-hunting looks to me like an outstretched, never-ending path and I do not relish it or care for it in any way. In short, I am totally tired of all the pleasantries and smiles and meaningless praises which bring no results. The harshest thing to take is that all these letters of regrets that I receive each day are carving away at my confidence day by day and I totally dislike whats going on with me.
In spite of my utter distaste for the experience, I still continue applying and putting myself forward for interviews and job fairs. I need to get that first break again, its become very important this first elusive job after my long break, whichever comes first, because I can feel myself sinking bit by bit into this quagmire of frustration, helplessness and this total and absolute feeling of loss and helplessness- which is like just waiting to engulf me.
And so, I continue with my daily routine of sending applications and attending interviews...so that I may survive,just live, day to day to day to day..have to keep going right?
