What is the definition of a friend ? The dictionary says a friend is one who is attached to another by affection or esteem..sure that is true, a favored companion, true..and one that is not hostile. There is the hitch. Now-a-days I find a particular friend of mine being quite hostile to me and judgmental of everything I say or do. It keeps me wondering whats up. I ask this friend about it when I get a chance to, not often, as I get the feeling of being blocked off sometimes and of course I immediately get the answer everything is alright. In short a barrier is put up. Which begs the question, why I even bother to ask. Well the answer is, I do care of course.
Which makes me wonder where my friend has 'gone'. Not physically of course. Isn't a friend also one who would openly tell you what is really bothering them? Or if he/she has an issue with you? Wouldn't a friend just blurt out the issue and only then try to judge you rather than finish the judgement and then question you? Isn't a friend one with whom you can totally, comfortably rely on, believing you wouldn't be taken in the wrong way. That, you really needn't go into explanations of each and everything that you say or do. A friend is supposed to understand you just like that, right? To get the feel or rather to get a whiff of anything thats up with you even without the prop of words? But again, if one puts a barrier in between , its hopeless for any friend to really look at another and decipher whats going on.
And I have been having quite a few tiffs with this one particular friend. I believe this is because there is something very much unspoken between us thats been that way for quite sometime now. And I have no clue whats going on for heavens sake. I really do not know what to do with such a friend...go on with the so- called friendship or just cross it off ? There is the catch again, I cannot seem to totally write this friendship off. I 'd rather repair it and then nourish it. Everytime I go back, I find I am being pushed back which leads me to think I am not even needed in this relationship. At the same time I cannot pretend everything is alright . So the glitch. Its like the to be or not to be situation for me now. Again this one friendship is been on the rocks quite too often for my comfort I gotto say.
Between friends. its better not to have unnecessary barriers, and if one of them puts up a barrier , so will the other very soon and that will definitely denote the beginning of the end of that or any beautiful friendship or relationship, I believe.
Which makes me wonder where my friend has 'gone'. Not physically of course. Isn't a friend also one who would openly tell you what is really bothering them? Or if he/she has an issue with you? Wouldn't a friend just blurt out the issue and only then try to judge you rather than finish the judgement and then question you? Isn't a friend one with whom you can totally, comfortably rely on, believing you wouldn't be taken in the wrong way. That, you really needn't go into explanations of each and everything that you say or do. A friend is supposed to understand you just like that, right? To get the feel or rather to get a whiff of anything thats up with you even without the prop of words? But again, if one puts a barrier in between , its hopeless for any friend to really look at another and decipher whats going on.
And I have been having quite a few tiffs with this one particular friend. I believe this is because there is something very much unspoken between us thats been that way for quite sometime now. And I have no clue whats going on for heavens sake. I really do not know what to do with such a friend...go on with the so- called friendship or just cross it off ? There is the catch again, I cannot seem to totally write this friendship off. I 'd rather repair it and then nourish it. Everytime I go back, I find I am being pushed back which leads me to think I am not even needed in this relationship. At the same time I cannot pretend everything is alright . So the glitch. Its like the to be or not to be situation for me now. Again this one friendship is been on the rocks quite too often for my comfort I gotto say.
Between friends. its better not to have unnecessary barriers, and if one of them puts up a barrier , so will the other very soon and that will definitely denote the beginning of the end of that or any beautiful friendship or relationship, I believe.
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