Blood sure is thicker than water after all, time and again...

The distancing that has occurred between us siblings as years have gone by is a matter that really bothers me from time to time. I remember, as a school-goer and a residential student, the number of nights I have cried myself to sleep as I sorely missed my several siblings and my dear family. Myriad are the times I couldn't help myself being anxious during each moment that I was away from home,about the safety of each and everyone of them. This anxiety was only heightened by the fact that I got to see them during the vacations that came in the school year. In short, my misery in being at the boarding was easily multiplied by my yearning thoughts of home. I was very attached to my five siblings and my parents. I had been plucked away at the very young age of three and planted in the residential surroundings in the school. The misery that other fellow boarders felt only increased my sadness and longing for home I remember.

Every night while we lay ourselves to sleep, we were in the habit of murmuring a prayer for our dear ones and ourselves which again made me pray extra fervently for everyone's safety. The childish fear that little kids usually have, which I now frequently observe in my little ones, this fear of separation from their parents and loved ones was just a bit more acutely felt by me in those days, I remember. And yet, this same 'acute feeler' has changed so much over the years that I find myself hardly on speaking terms at times with some of my beloved siblings. If the love was/is strong ,so was the anger and dislike at times stronger. Still, I think this type of alienation between the siblings happened  between us much later in our youthful years.

But deep down, in spite of the anger, frustration and total misunderstanding that has happened /is happening,  deep down, I strongly believe none of us siblings can ever really wish ill for any of the others .Deep down, there still is /will always remain that concern and love that has maybe been suppressed, but never totally extinguished. This suppression is due to the circumstances and happenings that have been mostly out of our control. We, after all are mere puppets playing to the Divine tune, I guess. There is no hate at all, only a sometimes deep dislike, a disapproval of one and everything now, a criticism of each other. In events and things that matter, Blood does hold well together, I have found to my utter relief. All the show of animosity is forgotten, blood is blood and it does feel in unison and reverts to its natural alliance in spite of all external influence to overthrow and displace it, the strength of the bond of blood.

I am very confident, from my past and recent experiences, they will all come through for me when I really need them , in spite of this distancing by ourselves and by various occurences that have happened in our various lives. This, I believe is not just my case, it is same for all, whether it be for my own siblings or generally.