Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Continued Ramblings....



I am back. I have not had the urge to put down anything for quite some time now.  Not that there is not been any developments, would say it was just plain laziness and of course some dearth of free time to start my process of thinking back.

One important thing deserving of mention is that I have been able to reconnect with my most favorite teacher of all time. I have had the privilege of being in touch with him over the years- calls yearly at least-to be precise, but now it’s so much better. My very much admired and well-loved teacher has gotten himself to being socially active, especially on the popular social network and that really helps me a lot as I get to see another one from among those beloved people of my younger years.

Even better, he writes! Never knew this bit of info before and I am surprised that I never had the slightest idea about this talent of his. He had been a writer for quite long, like from a quarter of century back and its only quite recently that this self-acclaimed, most admiring student of his has known that he is such a talented a writer too. What a pitiful admirer and pupil could I be? It just is a sheer pleasure to be reading every bit of his writing. And he draws and paints too. But I sometimes have no idea what it is until someone comments on it. Poor! I know.

My dear Professor shares every little bit of his poems, one at a time on his page and it just is such a privilege and pleasure to me to see him being admired and praised, gently criticized by his friends, colleagues and most of all his beloved students from all over the world.

Initially, I had thought (even boasted to myself) that I did get it all …everything that I read that is, of my teacher’s writing, and was I wrong! Thinking back now, I feel I might have maybe grasped just 1% of all that he meant/ or wanted to mean in any one given piece of his overall writing.

Anyway, it is a grand treat for me every once in a while, having the privilege to read through his thoughts. It takes me years back to my undergraduate classroom; almost 25 years back to be exact. I once again become this very wide-eyed puny and timid girl, with my all absorbed/ absorbing eyes and mind, admiring him for his knowledge and the way he presented it and being so enthralled by this quite young all-knowing teacher who alone had the capacity to hold almost 99% of our classes’ attention. The beauty of it is that he had such a wonderful, incomparable talent to seize and hold our attention in his very own original, peculiar, academic and kind ways. I use “kind” because of a little incident in class. Actually it was quite big, little incident for every one of his students that day.

One fine day, he began preparations for teaching us the essay “On Cheeses” by G K Chesterton. Now, for me to remember an essay and also its author’s name is quite extremely rare. The reason being, that I usually am not a fan of essays in general. He did turn me  into a fan of the collection altogether though- The Representative Anthology- by just being our teacher for that book. That is his talent. To come back to the topic of his kindness, Mr. Nair knew that none of us students, (45 or so I guess) probably had ever tasted cheese ever in our life. Cheese as such not being a necessary part of our daily diets whatsoever. Maybe one or two odd ones had, but generally most didn't. Nevertheless, he did not assume this fact, but having gauged from our answers we hadn't, (we were quite the aliens to cheese in those days), he went ahead and spent his very own money and bought some cubes of cheeses from the nearby grocery store (Spencer’s), which couldn't have come cheap I am sure, being Spencer’s and all that. And then, he proceeded to let all of us have   a taste of it in class just so we understood what we were reading about in class and to get us interested in the very topic I believe, which of course immediately roused all our attentions.

None of our teachers in school or college whatsoever, until then, past or current had ever gone to such lengths for students. At least, none that all of his students of that day knew of.

So, my dear teacher was not just kind, but extremely advanced in his use of brilliant use of classroom techniques too.

The well-read, beautiful English classes he engaged us in were incomparable to any other that we ever have had the luck to attend. The wonder of it was that, above all this seemingly limitless, all embracing knowledge of his, he was so totally humble and extremely kind, gentle and understanding to everyone. I have heard his colleagues speaking highly of this humility of his in quite recent years too. All this leads me into feeling profoundly proud of him for being a grand person and then leads me feel pride in myself for having had the luck to be his student for just a few years.

Now, his beautiful writings are each like small, delectable slices of his classroom instructions to every one of his students I am sure, reminding us of those blessed days that we all rather enjoyed. The well-read, sincere wholehearted way in which he engaged his classes are quite a precious rarity in these days of tech- rich classrooms, I got to say.

And indeed it is been one of my greatest blessings, one that I count very precious along with all my treasured blessings to be able to interact with my wonderful teacher and enjoy my teacher’s vast knowledge and his beautiful impressions of life that he thinks fit to make notes on.






A note to my dear (busy) Friend…

Wonder if you ever think of me, sometimes at least… I do often wonder about you.

I miss you, you know. I sorely miss the friendship we shared, your companionship and also all that mocking and all your criticisms, as well as your extremely rare appreciation of me.

I know you are watching out there, but I never see or have seen you initiating a conversation with me. Which makes me wonder if you at all care. It’s, as though you wouldn't stoop down to even say a mere “hi” to me, it always has had to be me who makes the first move with you.

I have reached that point where I have come to believe that I might have been/am a nuisance after all. And this disinterestedness I see in you is as a result and so I have chosen to stay quiet. But I do often wonder about you…how you are faring and I almost every time discover myself on the brink of asking you, call, text or message you…but I still hold out. That, I believe is because every time I have asked you anything with regards to your state, I come away with the feeling it was not welcome in the very least.

So you see, I have managed to keep away from asking, but I often wonder, I do.

And I guess you are mightily busy with your flourishing new enterprise and all your successes. And what with all that is going on, you may have no time for old friends I guess.


Let me confess though- I am able to hold out, as I too am busy, by the way. Or else, as you may have already guessed I would have been at bothering you too many times I am sure.


So, gallop on my dear in your search for greatness or rather your struggle for success in this busy, hectic world.

Let me just take a moment here to wish you always the very best in whatever you do and please know that you are never far from my thoughts.


Always wondering and sometimes worrying about you…